I felt despair. The word's overused and banalified now, despair, but it's a serious word, and I'm using it seriously. For me it denotes a simple admixture - a weird yearning for death combined with a crushing sense of my own smallness and futility that presents as a fear of death.
| Game | Time | WPM | Accuracy |
|---|---|---|---|
| 281020 | 2020-12-05 03:47:45 | 136.02 | 98% |
| 279220 | 2020-10-23 10:04:11 | 123.98 | 98% |
| 270572 | 2020-06-27 11:51:04 | 146.27 | 99% |
| 269522 | 2020-06-15 10:15:03 | 136.79 | 97% |
| 253274 | 2019-11-21 22:42:00 | 150.97 | 99% |
| 247156 | 2019-07-24 03:13:36 | 125.71 | 98% |
| 243045 | 2019-06-17 00:49:16 | 135.55 | 98% |
| 241845 | 2019-06-09 05:46:18 | 139.12 | 99% |
| 240167 | 2019-05-28 08:01:20 | 131.96 | 97% |
| 235919 | 2019-05-02 09:11:40 | 135.43 | 99% |
| 235035 | 2019-04-30 02:18:33 | 157.59 | 100% |
| 229872 | 2019-03-30 01:52:23 | 148.75 | 100% |
| 226621 | 2019-03-10 07:22:40 | 143.14 | 99% |
| 223708 | 2019-02-24 06:01:25 | 99.46 | 98% |
| 221648 | 2019-02-16 00:18:32 | 125.62 | 98% |
| 215901 | 2019-01-05 10:41:34 | 117.39 | 98% |
| 210414 | 2018-12-10 02:10:00 | 129.66 | 99% |
| 207312 | 2018-11-28 04:59:20 | 133.22 | 99% |
| 206928 | 2018-11-27 08:08:06 | 152.85 | 99% |
| 196026 | 2018-10-13 06:22:17 | 131.03 | 98% |
| 185011 | 2018-08-19 04:44:30 | 132.95 | 99% |
| 177227 | 2018-07-13 09:53:57 | 134.24 | 98% |
| 174495 | 2018-06-29 03:41:45 | 122.75 | 99% |
| 174097 | 2018-06-28 03:05:22 | 152.52 | 100% |
| 164159 | 2018-04-17 14:47:52 | 132.35 | 99% |
| 160563 | 2018-03-22 09:15:16 | 111.37 | 97% |
| 151972 | 2018-01-17 05:40:16 | 143.11 | 99% |
| 150037 | 2017-12-31 00:07:22 | 127.01 | 98% |
| 150035 | 2017-12-30 23:53:57 | 129.82 | 98% |
| 143397 | 2017-11-07 01:35:34 | 121.26 | 97% |
| 136177 | 2017-10-13 08:04:06 | 134.57 | 99% |
| 135906 | 2017-10-13 01:04:07 | 124.03 | 99% |
| 134492 | 2017-10-09 04:07:33 | 129.36 | 99% |
| 132896 | 2017-10-03 23:25:35 | 122.01 | 98% |
| 131938 | 2017-10-01 04:36:03 | 109.56 | 97% |
| 131614 | 2017-09-29 09:54:25 | 124.18 | 98% |
| 131586 | 2017-09-29 09:32:21 | 109.21 | 96% |
| 120856 | 2017-08-09 08:30:45 | 130.60 | 98% |
| 120202 | 2017-08-05 02:27:27 | 134.96 | 99% |
| 114790 | 2017-06-27 15:05:01 | 129.91 | 99% |